i'm a tees & flip flop kind of person. a writer, at some point. i live, eat, breath sports & i don't give a dirty shit about your perfectly manicured nails & your two layer cake make up.
yes, i'm stubborn, rude, deceitful, aggressive and a critic. if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
zahiah's chalet was overall not that bad. i had fun. but due to some circumstances and becoause of _____, i didnt get to hang out with the guys which i use too. the family was lovely and everyone made it including ms chua. i had lotsa fun. when and have a long walk to cheers and to the beach at midnight with yati, sadrina and jansen. late morning then we came back and still we aint sleeping. the rest was already asleep so we en up playing uno and cikopak outside and have endless conversation. slept at 4+. end up going home at10.30 in the morning. parents was nagging due to my overnight stay and wanting me to go home early. fuck. iam going to be 17. its not like iam 14 or something. thank god i had a cab ride home with sadrina or else more nagging. so i had GREAT fun with everyone. and everyone is being such sport. next stop, 18dec okae? haha.
28 July 2006 9:36 pm
today oral topic was 100% better than yesterday. yesterday oral was taken by half the class. it was, apakah anda tahu tentang keselamatan diri?
and ours was, apakah disiplin-disiplin yang terdapat di sekolah anda?
all well and done with. easy or whatt? it was so humorous how we were before we when into the examination room, in the library. hazwan was the first one, so he told us the conversation topic. we when into panic mood at first than all of us starts to brainstorm ideas on what to say. we knew everything in english and yet no one know how to translate it to malay. i was being very kecoh. zahir was like, "oi, kau nk mic?". haha. and it took me a couple of HUH?! to understand what he was saying. everything when into funny mode. everyone when into siak-face-mode when i say i need to do big and small business immediately. i panic alot. i had fun.
didnt i tell you iam a verygagap ? ok, now you know. i speak but there was alot of hesitation. the examiner asked me if any girls in the school have done something horrible or something. and i mention this particualr sec2 girl. no name pointed. and ending up knowing that nisa also talked about her. i should thank this girl if we get distinction somehow. i should have offer more but i cant think alot at that point of time. iam praying hard not for merit. this could help me alot.
last year topic was, apakah kemudahan yang ada di sekolah anda? and i ended talking about the bus outside the school. wth am i thinking? haha. no wonder i...
i saw wan in his ITE uniform. what a show off ah ok? i totally ignored the others. sorrie ah eyh. the 1st sentence that come out when i saw him was, 'fana, jangan lupa comment pic aku tau' in myspace. haha.i had a very very loud reaction lah. dumb prcs boys going for sembayang was looking at me. go and die eyh.
and now iam bored. everyone out bowling, yet again. i was too lazy to get ready and stuff. so i ended up looking up photos on friendster. every girls in my friend list which i known of. and i conclude that everyone has grown up so fast. all so gorgeous. except me, which still look the same. sigh.
and tomorrow is the biggest event of the month. so many birthday babies, so little money. happy birthday saidi zahiah afiq longzhen! for the meantime.
26 July 2006 11:35 pm
today we had our class forum with mr yeo. the class had a completely wrongs perspective of him.
he is very open-minded and straight. he never shout. he always raise his voice. he dont use vulgarities but uses strong words of expressions.
the class who have not been taught by mr yeo should not complain. stupid like shit. he teach me since i stepped in prcs in sec 1. no one is perfect and the class should except him just the way he his. he may call people to eat dogshit and call people bloody asses. but hello? doesnt the class have a sense of humour or even take jokes? that is a joke. the class laugh. you dont have to sulk/cry/get angry. the class was spilling words of hatred toward him straight. four words for the class, think before you speak.
so just shut up and listen to what he teaches and says. if you dont like the way he teaches than go and fail. he is a very good english teacher and his notes are useful.
so give him time to adapt to you, and you will realise hes not want you expect he is. dont correct me if iam wrong at this point of time. cause iam not and never wrong when it come to this. you are.
in conclusion, i notice that 4/3 is too pampered in everything. and have a huge problem of being a complain king. no offence :)
tell me why i even bother writing this? urgh.
25 July 2006 7:47 pm
it suck to be the top 2 in 2.4 we always have to run with the failures. no, not failures. people who cnt run on time. nontheless,iam proud for dear hafsah for passing.
what sucks even more is that. i perspired. it photo taking day and i perspired. ALOT. i got over flowing bottoms every single minute. and stuffing tissues is never comfortable. it was horrible. i couldnt even smile properly. bodoh. its ruined.
this friday is my mt oral.for real. kelancararan bahasa melayu saya sungguh tidah memuaskan. iam so gonna cork up like last year. i cant speak bahasa baku. get it? if i didnt get distinction for this oral. and and A1 or A2 for my overall examination. i will fuck myself. gosh. this is suicidal.
iam taking a break from all those after school exams. its been going on every day and everything feels so messed up. last year was never ever like this. NEVER.
but i never regret of doing this yet again. but i will regret taking O's with the sec three. it sucks.
and iam not proud of gaining 1kg and grow by 9mm. fuck. 10kg and 10m more please.
iam sick of arctic monkeys.alesana.lamb of god and everything. for 2hour ive been listening to torn. sigh.
iam glad school week is gonna be over. and i prolly will enjoy my weekend like hell. over at zahiah 17th bday chalet. yeay.
and please, iam not physically depress. youre such a suckerbitch if you think iam.
i cant believe everyone plus me, been saying fuck alot this days. aah fuck, wth. and shut up okae? okae best.
pe jee fana.
20 July 2006 11:02 pm
school been pretty chaotic. and i kind of enjoyed it.
excluding all the classes of course. revision paper make me sick. prep exam make me stress out.
and yes, i screw up my math. like reall bad. i didnt do 6qs. i cant help it that i slept for 20sec. and i was in super-selenge-panic-stress mode. last year prep exam wasnt this fucking hard. sigh.
class been full of surprises. and i wish the guys wont talk so much. sucka. =)
iam sooooo in love with myspace!
like totally.
16 July 2006 2:54 pm
yes, spongebob is the love.
so yesterday we celebrate dear sarah and fauzah birthday. just a simple-only-us birthday at fida's house. we had fun regaining back all the past memories and we when back laughing about it. just like old times. it was funny how we landed on doing each other hair. i love them ah okae? than evening, wehn town with dead fauzah. boarders is the love. topshop have changed. it was vavavvoom. iam totally in love with eveyrthing in forver 21. so whatever. got home and stuff. she was my camwhore bitch for the day.
than when i reach tam interchange. dead dan called up for baybeats fun. being tired, i couldnt miss a single bit of the fun. it was chaotic. juni say alot of people we know was there. but i couldnt be bothered searching high and low for this asses. excluding juni. haha. fiz was forever pissed at me. he is sooo vain lah. he keep doing his all so emo hair and i cant resist to spoil it all out eventhou he was much muhc taller than me. dan was laughing at me cause i was too short to see a thing. busted sak. a fight broke out and it looks stupid. so we cant be bothered.
i only manage to enjoyed myself for 2hr after being called up that my parent were on the wy home. so i got home and guess what? there was no one at home. i was bloody pissed cause i have to wait outside the house for fucking 2hr straight. i got bored being the door care take so i when down to 7evelen and waste my bloody time. and i got afiq to waste my smses on. i could have spend 4hr straight till midnite at esplanade sak. worst case scenario.
so since i didnt get to enjoy myself fully on yesterday baybeats. my mum decide to buy me a new handphone. which would eventually be a 3G phone. so iam pretty cool about the situation. and yes potc2 is quite okae.
we gone bonker as people were eventually looking at us.
ultimately my favourite best kiss awards on the history of best kiss mtv movie awards ever. and i never get sick of watching the notebook. i cried but it was worthwhile.
yesterday when home with dearest tingting. for 3 years,now i know she live near me. i had a good talk with that mini lady. you people actually use sanitary pad for ____?! i got a longggg laugh after that. GROSS. THE GIRL WITH THE POWER TO SPANK PEOPLE BUTT.
than today when home with shu yuan. iam so called his 'slave' since forever. people was eyeing on us when we got home. HAHA. we live side by side mann. 'slave! dont run away. come carry my file!' 'slave! you cannot quit. youre mind forever. MUAHAH.' 'i pay you. you must obey your master' 'nah, 50cent for a start. comecome' HES A GOOD CONTROLLING MASTER MIND YOU.
10 July 2006 6:37 pm
it was dissapointing. italy win by 5-3 throu penalty.
i was so frust up over the referee. all i could say was, wtf?!
zidane and materazzi scored 1 for their teams. the 2nd half goes haywired. serious shit.
zidane's red card was one of the turning-points of the match. the fourth official saw what happened and informed the referee. the assistant referee saw nothing. I don't know what Materazzi said, he who equalised and provoked zidane's sending-off. it's sad, but I think the italian player made a meal out of what happened. you should have seen how zidane sondol his head against the italian player stomach. i was laughing. when he got called to be out, he cried. so i stopped.
right at that point, ribery and henry was under substitutions already. but its okae. france really did played well.
they made it top 2? hello? if zidane didnt except the invitation to join france, i dont think france would even be exist in this year WC. (zidane retired already, mind you.) so yeay.
i got dear YATI to accompany me online till morning. she sooooo lemao ah okae!! haha.
so the match lasted for 3hr. i only get to sleep for an hour. but i get a 3period beauty sleep rest in class. mr yap was absence. he soo understand our situation. school was okae and yesssaaaaa! iam sooo gonna go for the cambodia trip. i love adventure and overseas trip. i thinkkk? okae later.
09 July 2006 9:38 pm
the WC fever is finally ending. quite sadistic actually.
after grosso and del peiro scored 2 for italy. and the ultimate zidane scoring 1 for france. iam so overjoyed for the upcoming final event. never underestimate the power of french. oleh!
so the 3rd placing goes to germany. schweinsteiger scored two goals. hope i get his damn name right. and an on goal by dearest petit. alot of people support portugal. they seriously was horrible lah dey. HAHA.
WC somehow seems much more important. than school and studies and homework. it sucks that 1mth when pass just like that. after all those laking of sleeps for the past days. damn iam not missing this one.
se ana a love united bewana.
04 July 2006 4:51 pm
this few days i discovered some unexpected feelings. have i been too nice? too egocentric? or just plain evil? i have been contemplating about the strange things of it that it brought about a huge wave of cynicism. Like how I am always reading too much into something, or how I allow paranoia to take control so easily. sometimes I think too much I feel my brain cells dying on me. sometimes to an extent of hating myself at one point,just drop dead and love myself way too much all of a sudden.
i was pretty euphoric today. exclusion of assembly. it seriously bore me out. i have been in prcs for a long time and having the same presentation being shown every year really ticked me out.
english lesson was so tedious. we basically has to do a retest which didnt even sounded like a test when the whole class was exchanging answer without a teacher supervision. mr gay was outside practicing oral with the other half of the class. we girls ended up gossiping about kang wei and how his future sex life would be. which of course, would be purely sickening. i cant help it that i was born with an agreeable dimension of wild imaginations?
the semi-final was even bigger than i thought. this unpredictably sec1 chinese geeks who sat beside me was talking about soccer. 'haizxz. you support who? i support germany liao. alot of people like italy de worxz. hehe..... but very sad lor brazil out. i like brazil alot deh.the game was stupid wor. france so bad somemore. like what de. teehee. my baobeii happy lor brazil out. i want to kick him de. but you watching or not hor? kekeke..'
so yea. and one uncle was shouting over the phone so loud. 'wei! italy lorh italy..!' he was obviously on a bet.
we had our self-study over at the DnT room. we were suppose to have chemistry lesson after that but whole class was not aggreing to attend. so i did when home straight and grab some fries. does forgetting to pay is centrally equal to stealing? whoa, guess what? i just grab the fries when off. all i could thing of was,fuck, $1 could save me 10 seaweed. HAHA.
I spend this few days talking/advising people whic eventaully increase my social life. its funny how a simple conversation suggested me to handle this matter in a totally different manner. the necessity of being in a relationship doesn't seem to make sense to me, we definitely don't have to be in one to be happy. i haven't been in one all my life and it doesn't worries me because I know there's nothing I'm missing out on.
and right at this point of time, iam just contented with everything that i have in life. like whoa, not everything actually. so anyway iam going to have an early sleep tonight and will be waking up at 3am. so see you people online ok?
ok best.
02 July 2006 11:16 pm
right when i know. cil lala support c.ronaldo. i was likeee,
'kental ah die. stakat handsome je! main dah larh solo. kalau menang happy, kalau kalah nangis satu macam! dasar gay.'
she has the 'i know ure jealous' smirk. HAHA. it sucks that final falls on school days.
so, i spend friday and today doing bowling with the family. it was okae. i love my score for today. 96, 124, 136. since everyone has their own bowling ball, iam the only one who use straightt ball, while everyone including my small bro. use curve ball. wtf wtf wtf. its bowling, who cares? not meee.
5:40 am
right at the start of world cup. i was so sure brazil and england would not make it. and voolaa! my prediction was totally right.
the team going to semis. -germany -italy -portugal -france
a HUGE sense of relieve. thank god brazil is out. hoho. i dont bother posting the score. iam sure you people heard of it anyway.
after last night event, i think england and brazil did not played well. i mean england has bad record for penalty. and my hero rooney really should go for anger management. christiano ronaldo is one gay asswhip who played solo. (exclude his looks) deco should take over instead.
brazil oh brazil. play like shit. a very very slow match. kaka and ronaldo was dead? italy is so out of my league ah okae.
i like england but i dont want them to win. i hate(little) portugal but i want them to win. i like brazil but i dont want them to win. i hate france but i want them to win. get it?
i think girls nowadays. watch soccer just for the sake of the player looks and not for the skills and ball control. and i think that is really pathetic. omg. you girls are not like this right?
theyfore, sleeping at 6am is so not wasted. cause right now i got rudy to accompany me. and i have no idea why i even post this stuff. not even a single blogger soccer fanatic is around. excluding dear fasha of course and so ill stop here. and post again. when the next wed and thurs arrive.
