i'm a tees & flip flop kind of person. a writer, at some point. i live, eat, breath sports & i don't give a dirty shit about your perfectly manicured nails & your two layer cake make up.
yes, i'm stubborn, rude, deceitful, aggressive and a critic. if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
yesterday was actually one of those days which made me very happy. had night study with fadh and akmal & it was fun, since we were the only pure historian students there since art and dnt students were busy being art and dnt students. haha. secret was spilled and from a one word called "cute", it turns into something so wrong. it was a big mistake because everything that was going on is one huge misunderstanding. sigh.
& well, somehow today, porn day, was actually one of those days which made me very insecure. weird perhaps? & during p.e, i sucked at soccer and this was such a huge embarrassment. playing soccer with the guys and guys from other classes was awkward. they always have this tak perlu comment about us. & chun hui(sp?) was so funny he gave this f*ing hardcore kick which somehow landed right onto my stomach with a loud thud and everyone on the field dah macam faham and extra2 nak tambah2. for a while, he turned pale because he just hit a girl. woooooah =/ & i fell and makde alot of mistakes after that. thank god there was halizah lah! & i hate it when the guys go, "alamak fana, what telah happen already? dulu main macam bukan pompuan." wtf. so whats your point dude? iam not pompuan enough when i was part of a soccer team 3 years ago? ouch. night study was okae. yongleng was being such a dear since hes willing to accompany me after the game and all. ok happyteachersday ey(:
& i smell something fishy.
this is just my luck. sigh.
28 August 2007 10:28 pm
iam confused. i feel as if iam working hard for nothing. some part of me feels like i've been working my ass off for this shit but some part of me feels like i have been doing nothing and instead slack my ass off. but then, why do i always feel soo tired? & dont get me started with the eyebags please.
i had a sudden silent breakdown during science chem/physics practical prelims yesterday. its very rare of me to have tears in my eyes but if something/someone means alot to me, than its worth crying my ass of (okmacam faham). ok so during the last 10min, i realised the whole physics experiment was not right . i was so frustrated and i think i just sat there and think what i've done wrong. & the experiment was suppose to be darn easy but wtf. i was suppose to sit right at the back but some shithead made me sit right infront. thanks eh. collins gonna kill me for sure. i blew easy peasy marks just like that. its Os prelim for goodness f* sake! omglah.
everything about school sucks as usual. oh ok, no surprises there. but its just killing me. totally f*ing killing me. everyone gotta stop asking me to study hard because iam working my ass off here and its even worst when i'm being left alone to rot, bleed and die. but on the bright side, i have a very crazy bunch of classmates to look forward to. & i manage to catch up with the brother since we spend 1hr of soccer training outside and inside. the sister was so pissed when we end up playing soccer in my room too since she was using the laptop. & yea! after watching girl on girl on tv, i feel really really embarrase to be a girl. i mean come on, you suck if you cant even kick the ball properly lah.
& friends, please dont come back to prcs this friday for teachers day. i will be so embarrased, really. yeayeayea, what only eh fana. oh dude, if you were me, you will feel the same way.
19 August 2007 3:50 am
yesterday was fun and iam proud to say that my family is a sport activitist(!). spend the whole morning over at marina bay for the hearstring walkathon. then the whole afternoon/evening we were over at japanese garden. international bloomberg company held a private grand outdoor party and lawnbowl association was called up to set up one of their booth to showcase lawnbowl. & well the usual bowling session later at night till dawn. =DDDD
(click to enlarge) the arrival from two different company.
the brother was in his own camwhoring kinda zone today.
kayaking and dragotboat moments. f. awesome.
hahahaha. sorry ah. i ter-darken the family photo.
very random. dad&bro hang out with the anak pekerja melayu trying to crack open a coconut which wasnt suppose to be crack (-___-)
iman too wanted to be part of the event. haha.
iman is sooo forever adorable, he was with me whereever i go.
the 'summer party' was conditionally a failure since it was raining heavily beforehand and the ground was seriously muddy and watery. guest who went there was properly attired and i cant help but laugh at those who wore high heels. the food was just scrumtious and ranging from japanese, maxican and to western. the desert corner was on self service basis and you have no idea the amount of strawberry w/ whippedcream,ice kachang and the different kind of cakes i took. alot of those food cost alot in public ok. it was madness! even madness when everything was for free! & from the decoration and everything, the company could prolly spend more than $150,000 just for one summer party even which wasn't at all summer lor since it was raining.
3:00 am
had a catch up session with this two lovely souls over at changi on friday. the cashier over at Popeye was so dumb that it took him almost 10sec to realise that they was such thing as buttermilk biscuits (-___-). we backtrack our lives back during sec1 till how we are right now. it was downright hilarious and immature of us. the evening was a laugh fest and pretty much enjoyable.
17 August 2007 11:03 pm
port dickson, 09 - 12 / 08 more in album.
13 August 2007 1:05 am
port dickson was fun yet dissapointing. i have people like azhar smsing me in the middle of my suckfest bragging about how awesome singfest was. thanks eh. pics will be up soon. & i hate the fact that theres school tomorrow. leceh lah.
i'm sorry,really.
09 August 2007 12:03 am
school was whacked and surprisingly i had fun in the hall with lutfi and ridwan. & i keep coming up with the 'alaah confirm aku naik, jadi hayley confirm menang nye' excuses. -__-" & when the bands was on, three of us was literally head banging our ass off and end up laughing at our self. there were so many unnecessary jokes that make me laugh till iam sick to my stomach. & don't start with the wave. it was chaotic and trust me, pursuaing all the sec5s to do it was f.tough. & when we have to stand up and sing those Singapore songs, we had our own 3-people mini moshing moment. & we were so semangat lah, i was literally moving vigorously despite the limited amount of space. after that while waiting to leave, i took all the bags which was within my reach and had a hardcore bag mosh. ugly sight i tell ya. haha. i was sooo noisy. i don't know what got into me today =D
& so most of the time i was omg-ing away cause we had multiple staring moments. we give this approving nod and when we actually realised that we were accidentally staring at each other, we end up with the same old trick of pretending to look at something or rather someone else. beautifully pathetic. & i finally sell my singfest tix to a very reliable friend(haha!). port dickson better be good man.
07 August 2007 5:46 pm
After waking up at 4pm and recovering those sleeping debt that was put on hold for a couple of days now, i felt much much better. I was in bed with the laptop on and spend the whole day, youtube-ing, watching band after band on warped tour and was literally singing/shouting my ass of. warped tour in san antonio was the f.best. it was awesome and i wish i was in indianapolis right now watching paramore, cute is what we aim for, i lay dying, killswitch engage, it dies today, circa survive, drop dead gorgeous, underoath and dozens more band who could be playing right about now while iam typing this. i wish i was there bodysurfing my ass off. & to think i have to like cancel my singfest moment for port dickson! urgh.
05 August 2007 11:25 pm
just when i thought she changed for good. but hey look. i have plenty of cool and pretty looking friends. it doesn't matter if i lose one because i wear coloured contact lense and im f. awesome and drop dead gorgeous now because i have alot of 'money' unlike last time. & oh , last time i wanted to be friends with everyone but now everyone wants to be my friend! haa. high maintenance ass. haha. thank god im not close to this kind of people anymore. we are worth than that hey.
ok my weekend was disappointing. at least my cravings for Popeye was fulfilled!(: & the nadia's + anaqi has hand, food and mouth disease. eek.
04 August 2007 1:25 am
Gwen Stefani will tone it down for Malaysian show.
Gwen Stefani will not wear revealing costumes during her Aug. 21 concert after Muslim students protested her sexy outfits and steamy performances.
Show organizer Maxis Communications Bhd. said the 37-year-old singer will follow the local code of ethics for foreign artists, which bans the unnecessary baring of skin.
Maxi Communications said in a statement: "Gwen Stefani has confirmed that her concert will not feature any revealing costumes. She will abide by the Malaysian authorities’ guidelines to ensure that her show will not be offensive to local sensitivities."
According to the Malaysian government’s Ministry of Culture, Arts and Heritage, enforcement officers will meet Stefani ahead of the concert and will monitor her act. She must be covered from her shoulders to her knees and is banned from jumping, shouting or throwing of objects on stage or at the audience.
screw the students. they should start with their own local artiste for a start. more power to Gwen for knowing that she can give quite the performance without flashing a lot of skin to her fans in other cultures with other viewpoints .oh well i admire her for putting up with that, and trying to understand another culture. if it were britney, she'd eat a damn pork chop on stage.
02 August 2007 9:43 pm
this two weeks was prolly the worst weeks of my life. eye bags have been building up on me and post period have made me very cranky this two weeks. I got annoyed at almost everyone and everything. I will blow out for nothing and end up cursing everyone. hazwan and fadh always end up as my victim, for no reason. this is sick. the paper has finally ended. well, not counting tomorrow because i aint studying for that since i know i will pass anyway. ha ha.
so this week was pretty bad except for Monday since i when night last minute shopping with the sister. well let me talk about Tuesday, the suckiest day of my life. well who could have guessed it, i had the worst fall of my life. we were heading back to our homeroom from the science lab. & lizz thought it would be fun to push me abit and get me a lil soaked. well she pushed me at the wrong time and the wrong place. there were a huge baby pool puddle beside me. when she pushed, i slipped and fell hard on my back and onto the puddle, showing off my 6 -years -ago shorts while the side of my head hit against the wall. the whole class cracked up and the pathway was filled with laughter. the worst thing was that my menstrual period was on heavyflow mode. some k.p.o from art and DnT building went outside to see whats the commotion about. the matrepsprolly laugh the loudest. thanks eh.
& of course being the usual me, i laughed my ass off seeing how silly i was back to the classroom. well it wasn't a laughing matter anymore when my knee joint was well, unjoint. & the head giving me multiple headaches. i could have burst out with tears but i was trying hard to put on a brave face. the girls & guys(excluding the matreps) were being such a dear. thanks. & to think my day was worst, akmal was too. he got his hair cut by zul but the end result looks good. the 18DEC babies ain't liking that day ay.
& don't get me started on the after school prep exam. elective history was the worst since the question came out with two topic phrases in it. prolly the slackest exam I've ever taken. i was so stressed up i only wrote a couple of lines on one of those seq qs and end it with a big, " i have no idea what to write anymore. thanks you and good luck =D" The back to back papers without a decent 5min break was giving me headache. even though i did burn the midnight oil, i don't think i did well. oh well. as per usual, im such a disappointment.
the phone have been a bitch towards me. It took me 20mins t0 reply to one pathetic message. apparently only the upper scroll was working. might as well throw it out the window. who cares. no one smses or calls me anyway. im that 17 turning 18 teen who have no life and just sits at home doing nothing. i feel so miserable, i cant do this anyway. oh hell yea, i betcha enjoying this ey. omg. why am i always in such a bad mood! urgh.
