so i spend my sleepless nights online reading up on the outside world. & at the moment these are my top hollywood actresses. & iam pretty bugged out over the fact that peoples(shall not be name) keep rubbing in my face on how bloody thin i look in jeans and t-shirt and they make a joke out of it thinking it was funny since it has no effect on them. i know i should not take this comments into consideration but hey, iam a human and i have feelings too. now you see why i have second thoughts when it comes to wearing t-shirt, meeting someone new or even stepping out of my comfort zone to enjoy my youth especially at this kind of age. i cant believe my body is doing this to me no matter how much food ingredients i actually insert into it. whatever it is, iam begging you to stop. i dont want to have high-metabolism no more. its not that blissful anymore. its tormenting. you are ruining beneath me. & everytime i tried to keep myself optimistic over the whole situation, the only advice that keep popping inside my heard was this,

"for beautiful lips, speak words of kindness, for beautiful eyes, always seek out the good in people & for beautiful posture, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone."
- Audrey Hepburn.