iam confused. i feel as if iam working hard for nothing. some part of me feels like i've been working my ass off for this shit but some part of me feels like i have been doing nothing and instead slack my ass off. but then, why do i always feel soo tired? & dont get me started with the eyebags please.

i had a sudden silent breakdown during science chem/physics practical prelims yesterday. its very rare of me to have tears in my eyes but if something/someone means alot to me, than its worth crying my ass of (ok macam faham). ok so during the last 10min, i realised the whole physics experiment was not right . i was so frustrated and i think i just sat there and think what i've done wrong. & the experiment was suppose to be darn easy but wtf. i was suppose to sit right at the back but some shithead made me sit right infront. thanks eh. collins gonna kill me for sure. i blew easy peasy marks just like that. its Os prelim for goodness f* sake! omglah.

everything about school sucks as usual. oh ok, no surprises there. but its just killing me. totally f*ing killing me. everyone gotta stop asking me to study hard because iam working my ass off here and its even worst when i'm being left alone to rot, bleed and die. but on the bright side, i have a very crazy bunch of classmates to look forward to. & i manage to catch up with the brother since we spend 1hr of soccer training outside and inside. the sister was so pissed when we end up playing soccer in my room too since she was using the laptop. & yea! after watching girl on girl on tv, i feel really really embarrase to be a girl. i mean come on, you suck if you cant even kick the ball properly lah.

& friends, please dont come back to prcs this friday for teachers day. i will be so embarrased, really. yeayeayea, what only eh fana. oh dude, if you were me, you will feel the same way.